Growth

 Is it growth take a moment before responding to someone who has just tweaked your buttons?  Not pushed… just tweaked. 

Is it growth to to be indifferent?

Is it growth to continue to take one step at a time toward something you will never be sure of how it will play out?

Is it growth to continue to want a past part of your life, but not glob onto it life a life preserver?

Is it growth to still care for others that don’t seem to care for you?

Is it growth to realize that everything changes and yet, sometimes these same things stay the same?

Is it growth to be able to sit with yourself, alone, yet still be lonely?

I’m not sure what growth is. At times, I feel I’ve grown in my mindset. Other times, I feel stuck in time, looking at the outside. Can I feel both?  Do both?

Man, I don’t even think I make sense. 

I’m not angry. I’m not lonely. I’m not happy. I’m not sad. I’m not content. I’m not hungry. I can tell you everything I’m not and in the same breath tell you not of what I am. 

Although… I… am. 

🤯

Woof. Sometimes writing this down makes my head hurt. A lot. 

Just a brief moment out of a busy day that led me to where I am in my universe. 

Navigating Rudeness

 I’m so tired. 

Just tired. 

Navigating rudeness is never ending and exasperating. 

After texting my ex-husband about taking our daughter to work tomorrow… I expected a response. Even if it was just “No”.  Instead, he texts my daughter.  For goodness sake, answer me. I know you don’t like me. But answer ME. It wasn’t our daughter who contacted you. It was me. 

Lord. 

/facepalm

I’m trying to co-parent the best I can giving many things. Work. With. Me. 

😒