Today has started out dark and dreary... both in weather and with my emotional state. The last couple of days have been difficult for me for many reasons and I have been worn thin.
I wonder what the future holds for me as I try to get my head around many things that are happening in my life. For now, my crazy schedule, due to the plethora of kid activities, has me hopping. I wish I could say that the activities keep my mind from wandering to places it shouldn't go, but, they don't.
I need something. I don't know what. This is a problem.
I have a list of things I want to do. No resources to really do them right. I have a list of things that I am unhappy with or about. Most of the time, I don't have the energy to face them, let alone figure out a way to conquer or change them.
For now, I go to work, I come home and I do the best I can with what I have to work with. For now, this will have to be enough.
